I have the confidence that if I get hard, I can pleasure a woman. But the inner voice is telling me I won’t get hard.
Like a past version of myself stuck in a loop of past humiliating sexual experiences and other times I’ve felt inadequate, convinced that it will be like that forever.
Due to past trauma and other related incidents I’ve come to form a heavy anxiety around being sexually active. I feel my inner thought or (critic) reminds me of my past and tells me what if u can’t do this or what if she doesn’t feel the same way. I have 100 thoughts race through my mind. Even when I tell myself I can do this it still doesn’t work.
It’s like it pulls me out of the moment, and reminds me of bad times and shifts me into a dark space. It’s not a voice but like a heavy weight or something just slowly chipping away at me
Its myself,.m’y voice telling its not gonna work
It’s an angry version of me
It was very much me telling myself that I will fail at sex, that my willy won’t work. Essentially it leaves me scared of sex.
Just a feeling that things won’t go well. It’s amorphous and difficult to pinpoint.
It’s me
Feeling apprehensive that it won’t go well and worrying about specific aspects that could go wrong
So far it feels like a cynical sadistic version of myself, like a Gollum to my steeple, reminding me of past failures.
Worrying if she’s enjoying it
Worrying if I can keep it up
Definitely me the first word that comes to mind is the devil. The second the shameful gremlin.
It’s my inability to hold a relationship that keeps coming back to me and giving doubt
Worrying if I will be able to stay hard despite the attraction and ease of getting an erection.
There’s no critic. It’s just a figment of my brain synonymous with me
Working I will not be able to satisfy my partner.
Non visual, but the feeling is of lost control. When the time comes, I have this level of self expectation and how things are, “supposed to” work. And when I feel they aren’t going that way I feel like I lose control of my own body and nothing works at all
Myself but like a shadow