It tells me I don’t enjoy sex with my girlfriend anymore because I sometimes can’t maintain an erection and it makes me believe that to be true sometimes.
I have decades of feeling like a failure and confirmation of that from women who didn’t want to see me agian or broke up with me because of sexual issues. I can hear an inner critic, but the feeling of that rejection resurfacing is the most acute.
a nagging negative voice that stresses me out and gets my heart racings. makes my heart race, my forehead sweat. I try and picture it as a chubbier version of my self that I then try and get on-side. He then turns into the real me.
It tells me im wasting the oportunity to have great sex and give my partner loads of pleasure and cum.(Hehe)
It says im less man because cant fuck her properly and give her rock solid penis instead of soft. Tells me im not going to mantain It hard
It tells me that you are trying hard to get it hard. But you have always given and get, and have not gotten much from the partner.
Doesn’t matter how many women you are trying to imagine with, it won’t work.
He tells me that I am useless as a man and that my girlfriend will get frustrated and leave me if I don’t work. This is despite the contrary being true and that sometimes I do work very well. But every time there is that small seed of doubt which just grows.