I felt a wave of anxiety through my shoulders and chest
An ex who made me feel horrible when I didn’t perform
Me during my worst and having no hope, telling myself i can’t do it
As in other similar cases, in its core it is a little scared boy in a fetal position that just needs security. The attached voice is constantly on guard to try an prevent a fast eaculaion which creates tension in my body and actually leads to a quick eaculation. I also get into my head and its hard to feel intimacy, connection or freedom of expression.
“You’re too soft to have sex”
Black emptiness
Me when I first began to struggle, telling myself I will continue to struggle if I try
Anxiety, overthinking how long I’m going to last
It’s like a wave of aura infecting my mind and its hard to let go off. Where do I ever start?
It s like thoughts that come the same day when I think me and my girlfriend could have sex.
Like a spotty aura making me second guess any excitement.
It’s not a physical being. It’s like a voice or feeling I have that overwhelms the thought process. Like a little voice talking to me, saying “you won’t be able to get it up” instead of “I.” A faceless judgement from the outside
It’s myself
My own voice telling me not to bother as I’ll be a disappointment anyway, causing extra anxiety
It is my own voice telling me I’m not enough
My own voice, telling me ‘now don’t be anxious’
It feels like my voice telling me I’m not enough and deserving enough to let my guard down in the moment. It sort of blankets and numbs all sense of excitement.
It wasn’t a literal “voice”, just me thinking those negative thoughts to myself
It was my own voice saying negative things to myself.
Thinking negative thoughts and then accepting the results as the reality