This might be a bit lengthy but here goes…. I recently separated from wife after our 10th year of marriage and being together for 15 years after I found out she was having an affair for over a year. I’m fairly confident she was having more than one but whether it’s one or multiple, it’s irrelevant. During our marriage, she was quite emotionally traumatizing to me but being a typical macho guy, I ignored it and powered through it. An example and one that stands out the most in my mind was the last time I tried to be intimate with her. We were on a cruise in Greece and as we were getting intimate, she stopped and asked(I’ll never forget this), “why do you get that stupid look on your face when you’re about to get some?” I was smiling….
Either way, this isn’t the only example of her taking shots at me about basically anything I did, whether it be sexual or otherwise. But this was something I’ll never forget.
As I am a very loyal person, I never stepped out on the marriage so I never knew that I might be having any issues with “performing”. Fast forward to just recently, and I’ve lost a good amount of weight and focused on my physical health and I’ve realized I have ignored my mental health… I’m all in my head when I have an opportunity with a woman now and am having issues getting hard or maintaining my erection. Last night, I was with a beautiful Brazilian girl and it just wouldn’t work and I couldn’t have been more turned on by this girl. Both physically and mentally, she stimulates me and turns me on beyond and I couldn’t keep it up. My mind is racing when I am in this situation now about being able to perform and this has never been an issue in my life. Hence, why I have joined this as of today. It’s hard for me to talk to people about this stuff or anything that makes me feel vulnerable so this platform and these boards are a way for me to open up. I did my first day today and it was eye opening. Hopefully I can get my mojo back and start feeling confident in the bedroom again.