Long post but I wanted to share this with the community as a reflection of the work I’ve put in but also to hopefully help others out there.
Background: I’m 31 and have struggled with performance anxiety ED ever since my first sexual encounters when I was a teenager. I was always drunk and unable to get hard. These experiences stayed with me and I resorted to using viagra to help me lose my virginity to my girlfriend at the time when I was 17.
I was able to wean myself off meds in that relationship and did the same with my last girlfriend, but have always relied on using meds when dating or on one night stands. I’ve just always had this calm, quiet but insistent voice telling me that if I’m not in a committed relationship, I’ll need meds to get and stay hard.
In September I decided to commit to using Mojo regularly to get over this. I’ve tried as many of the exercises as possible, and have found the ones that get you out of your mind and into your body to be the most helpful (meditation, sensate, directed masturbation, wax and wane).
Last night I had sex with a girl I’ve been seeing for a few weeks for the first time. No meds, stayed hard while putting on a condom, had sex in different positions for 10-15 mins. I haven’t done that since being with my ex almost 3 years ago. We had sex again this morning. It was great but I lost my erection, which was disappointing but I’ve barely thought about it today. It happens, she didn’t mind at all, and we just did other stuff. No problem.
I really believe that Mojo can work if you commit to it. I’ve still got a way to go on my journey, but can already see positive results and will just take it a day at a time.
Keep it up!