So recently using this app I’ve been feeling fairly positive about it. Have been able to have sex and keep hard for the most part for sex sessions. But last night when I was having sex with my girl from behind she said “I want you to fuck me with that dick” I thought she said “I want you to fuck me with that little dick.” So I called it out and said “wait did you just say what I thought you just said” she denied and said it was something else. So naturally I’m now in my head and I managed to keep hard during the rest of the sex but when I started to fuck her from behind she asked me “can you put another finger in my pussy while you fuck me” - instantly the inner critic jumps up and goes “I was right you aren’t enough for your girl girlfriend she wishes you had a thicker cock”. I was able to breathe into it and carry on but I had a feeling of shame and anger after words as I had never been told this ever whilst having sex. Now we do have Normal sex and she does cum regularly just from my cock but there was something about this experience that was super triggering for me.
She’s tells me she enjoys the sex and loves my cock but Im finding it hard to deal with that critic in my head that hates the idea that she wants a thicker cock than I have. Im struggling to fact check this situation as it seems logically to me that the situation in that moment basically insinuates that.
Would love some advice here from some of lads that might have felt a similar concern over size ?