Hey guys. My problems started few years ago as i started to date my ex girlfriend. The first time we had sex i got super nervous and went into fight or flight. Never had problems before that, didn’t even know that could happen.
In our two year relationship this only happened once again as i was super stressed. These two scenarios planted the first seed of doubt and somehow i just kept thinking about it.
As we broke up i didnt date for a long time. But as i started i didnt want this to happen again. I tried sildenafil and i kept taking it ever since then (maybe 1 1/2 years) to the point where i think i cant perfom without them.
Problem is, i travel frequently due to work and i am never more than 2 months at one place. I do date, but i never build a deep connection to feel super comfortable with a person and to work on my problems, because eventually something awkward could happen.
In general i am stressed and a overthinker, maybe you have some advice for me.