Today I felt horny and put on a porn video and started masturbating. I was really rock hard and into the session, but after a while I started to lose my erection. I noticed that I didn’t lose my erection though I was horny, but rather that lost horniness, which caused me to lose my erection.
I think negative emotions triggered this response in my brain, as I looked on my phone and thought about how the girl I had been dating hadn’t responded in a while, and I thought of her not being interested in me anymore.
Also, I thought of how I have a hard time reaching a climax and somehow felt that I wouldn’t be able to reach a climax this time, so that made me feel less horny too.
I can’t stand how my brain is so sensitive to negative emotions. I can feel horny at one point, and totally start losing interest in sex the next moment if I’m having a negative thought.
I do notice that focusing on the things I can see and feel help me to prevent negative thoughts from intruding, but I feel like that when one pops up there’s no turning back. Does anyone recognise this?