Identifying the inner critic during soft penis pleasuring (Part 1)

Started off with negative comments, telling me that I should get hard. But as I relaxed into it and tried to notice the comments as the critic, it started to feel more natural

Funny how when i stress on getting my dick hard it goes soft, but touch it and focus on keeping it soft it wants to get hard. Its been such a long time since ive just played with my dick for pure sensation, like i used to as a teenager almost. And breathing and relaxing the body while doing it helps. Need to convert this feeling to wity a partner!

Felt good to just be comfortable with my own penis. While exploring I did start getting hard, but not fully erect,
and it stayed like that for a while.

After it got hard and I let it go back to being soft. It said it’s usually not like that when it’s completely soft

Why even in this comfortable setting where there should be no fight/flight response am I not getting hard playing with it. What is wrong with you? Even now here you can’t perform. Loser!

That it is fine to be soft. It’s also fine for your wife to get it elsewhere. The sensation is clearly shame. They cause, strengthen, and perpetuate performance anxiety.

I don’t feel anything

I have a fear and reflex to the thought of something going in my urethra.

You can’t get hard

Concerned that the half chub I was getting should have been a full on erection and maybe this is all I have to work with normally

The inner critic was activated when I saw myself from certain angles. Those triggers activated it to say “this is just like when you couldn’t perform with X.” These thoughts impact performance anxiety but I felt better during the exercise

What am I doing here. What if someone l know found out about the weird stuff l am doing here.

Yes thoughts about not being big enough and not being hard long enough
Sexual shame from past experiences, religious etc

Where’s the election?

My inner critic was pretty quiet. Instead my body was focused on the present sensation rather than the end goal of an erection

Worried that it didn’t get hard

“Well, you might not have any problems with your penis right now-but why is it then that you don’t feel anything during partnered sex? There must be something wrong with you!”

Size concern. Getting soft. Not being a perfect specimen. Too much hair. Weird tilt.

My inner critic was comparing the size to things like my fingers. And I kept having to pause to not get hard. It was weird celebrating when I got soft again but I think that’s supposed to be part of the exercise. My inner critic was intrigued by just holding it up soft. And trying to take that in.

My inner critic tried to put down the size of my penis and quality of my erection by comparing it to other penises my partner may or may not have experience with. Hearing those comments makes me feel insecure and worry about how “good” my penis is compared to others.