I have had a kink that I’ve been masturbating to for years and it’s not porn at all. When I was having sex for the first time I couldn’t get fully hard but my partner was still enjoying it. And she was upset at herself that she couldn’t make me cum she tried sucking it and jerking me off and nothing worked I just felt defeated bc I know it’s bc my brain has been set to that kink and that’s all it knows how to cum to.