Long story short: I cheated on my wife. The best loving supporting person I’ve known, the love of my life. Whom I’m unfortunately less and less attracted to sexually and who has a low libido herself. Have been on and off on Mojo, not super active, as I thought my psycho ED actually doesn’t exist, things generally work, just life is sometimes difficult 
It was a one night stand with a hot girl, way hotter than my wife, and … no erection at all. She was super understanding, very active and even made me come twice w/o getting hard.
I feel I’ve just morally destroyed myself, particularly because I worry more about the ED than the cheating, which makes me feel even worse, like becoming a worse person and not having remorse
Oh, and I had flu for three days, and was weak afterwards - this could well be a huge factor too - but now who knows.
Was a very stupid idea to do this, double stupid when you are not sure you are feeling well.
Just venting here. Maybe someone was in a similar situation.