I recently had my first sexual experience at 21 as a gay man. I met an online friend and he ended up sleeping in my bed. We cuddled the whole night but he was quite unsure about getting sexual. He changed his mind twice so we ended up just sleeping.
In the morning, he asked if I wanted to just jerk off together but I struggled to keep my erection. I was quite embarrassed that he was able to finish and I wasn’t. I had always avoided hooking up prior to this as I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to stay hard/cum, so this really just confirmed my fears. I was also a bit worried about whether he was enjoying it because he was so unsure, which didn’t help.
I was lucky that my friend was fine with everything and told me that he understands. But since then, he’s seemed less interested in talking to me which has affected my confidence even more. I keep trying to work out whether my poor performance pushed him away, or something else I did.
I feel like my issues are definitely psychological and I am using Mojo to try to move past them. I think some of my issues are also related to body image, so I am also working on improving my diet and fitness.