So my situation is one I knowingly created. I have always wanted to try out new and exciting sexual situations (sex clubs, meeting randoms online, couples etc…) for all kinds of wild encounters.
However I am also super high anxiety and pretty quickly turned to ED meds to facilitate these experience.
The result is that it turned into a situation where I would struggle to get hard with a new partner. I eventually overcame it with my current partner but am aware that it is still a thing with anyone new (we do play outside the relationship occasionally) I recently went on holiday and ended up using a lot of taladafil for some encounters while away (I didn’t even try to get hard naturally), now back with my partner and I’m feeling anxious and just not getting turned on again. Partly guilt partly anxiety about having just used meds to get hard. Maybe just anxiety in general about what it all means.
The thing is, we haven’t even tried having sex yet, I just tried masturbating a few times and it took a lot of work to get hard, often it starts and then I give up because I feel like it’s pointless.
I’ve overcome this once before so know i can again, but wondering if anyone else has any experience similar and any advice.
It’s made me realise I need to address some things about my sex life properly and not just try to drug my way through uncomfortable situations.