Interesting talking about PE and ED. So to add some context for my situation , I broke up about 8 - 10 months ago with my long term gf of 6 years. For the first few years sex was amazing. We did all the kinky stuff you could think of, she was into bondage, toys, anal, everything I wanted to try with her she was into and wanted to try. I introduced her to it all. She was on birth control and we had unprotected sex throughout the entire 6 years after we become official. Our last year was a bit rocky, we started to grow apart, she said she didnāt love me anymore. I tried everything to bring the spark back, with quality time, thoughtful gestures, spontaneous trips, gifts, believe me I tried it all. Unfortunately nothing worked and we had to go our seperate ways as we didnāt have sex for a good 6 months. We did have sex on one of our weekend trips, but it felt like pitty sex and I felt she wasnāt really into it . Anyways my dicks always been sensitive, but I was always able to control coming to a certain degree. My first few thrusts would always feel like game over, but I just brute forced holding it in, let the wave pass and try again, I noticed that after 3-4 waves on just holding on for dear life, my body clicked in and I could go for quite some time after thatā¦ again this in unprotected.
Fast forward to the present,
So Iāve been trying to get back out there, meeting people in person and also on the dating apps.
Iāll be honest i hadnāt had sex or any sexual intimate connection with anyone since our breakup - so a good 10. Months. And thatās not counting the last time I had sex with the ex, so thatās close to 12 months maybe more without action. Brutal.
The breakup messed with me bad. I thought she was the one, the future mother of my children, I was locked in and set. I never cry for anything, but she broke me. Donāt want to admit it but itās true.
Anyways back to the ED and PE, never had an issue in the 6 years to get hard and stay hard. After my 3-4 waves of holding on from coming, Iād go to pound town to the point sheās begging me to comeā¦ again back a few years ago when things we good.
So in last few Months Iāve chatted up this one girl. Sexy Russian girl - sheās fine af. Perfect body, slim, hot! Got her over, we started getting intimate, and I made her come on the couch, eating her out, fingering her - happy days. During the act, she started blowing me, which was good, but my dick was so sensitive, I had so much pre-cum, my dick was dripping Like crazy, Not a problem tho, I just gave its wipe on my boxers, but dick was just constant stream of pre cum. That in itself if just making my dick sensitive af.
I picked her up , throw her over my shoulder for the couch and took her to the bedroom, threw her onto the bed, starting to eat her out etc, again she comes again. Made her squirt with a solid finger bang. She says do you have condoms, I said yes, grabbed one and started to roll it on (again dicks throbbing and ready to come with all this pre-cum).
I havenāt used a condom in for as long as I can remember. Just the sensation of rolling condom on, the sensation made me want to come. The base of the dick running on the ring of the condom is making me close to point of no returnā¦ I was fighting for dear life fellas, so much so I went soft - but still felt the urge to come with a semi. There she ass in the air, ready for doggy style, looking sexy af, wanting me to rail her and here I am semi condom dangling off my dick, canāt get hard and about to come with condom filling up with pre cum.
Just a lot of built up anxiety, stress, pressure, and not having action with anyone for so longā¦ it was The worst situation. I gave her a quick pump doggy style out of hope with a semi but I knew I was fighting an uphill battle.
I just threw her down, played with her a little, started caressing and she was all relaxed. She didnāt seem phased as I made her come many times so she was exhausted and almost falling asleep. so itās not like was wasnāt satisfied which is a bonus - and partly why I like to make her come a few times before I even get any action just as a safety net to know sheāsnot leaving disappointed.
Yes the mojo app has addressed the fact Iām treating sex as a performance, easily said than done when your having casual flings, as opposed to just one gf who can help work through it.
That was that scenario, hsvent seen her on over a month, but Sheās keen to coming over again soon when sheās back from business travels - so I kinda have a chance for redemption.
Anyways Iāve been doing Kegel exercises, edging, stopped the porn, etc for ages. Working out, in the best shape for a long time, Iām ripped af and stronger than ever. Diets on point. Never smoked, never drink and donāt do drugs - never have.
Had a girl on tinder come over tonight, we had a good time. Made her squirt multiple times and come hard. And we had sex. She sucked me off,and again dick was super sensitive, felt I was about to bust in her mouth when she started., again holding on strong in true fashion ā¦ again plenty of precum.,..Anyways all goodā¦ we got to having sex. Tried missionary and about to bust on entry. Swapped position straight away, and got her to ride me. I stayed hard for quite a few minutes, and was enjoying myself - she was too. I swapped to missionary, pinned her legs behind her ears and did some ground and pound and I was sweating like an animal. And I went semi soft. She finished me off with a semi but she was exhausted from coming multiple times already too. Making girls come first Seems to be my saving grace until I get my stuff back on point,
But the positive I felt improvement from last time with the Russian. This Argentinian chick was good was very gentle snd sensual and into it.
Also been taking cialis and loading for the last week, just for peace of mind. I know I shouldāve stayed harder for longer with that in my system but I understand that a lot of this is psychological.
Iām happy with tonight, as a positive. I feel improvement for the Russian chick, Started hard and had a little bit of sex. Not like the old me either the ex with no condom but doing what I can. Small wins.
The condom thing is something Iām trying get my head around. Trying to get my mind not see it as a vibe killer. Iām not sure what it is. The sensation, or the fact it looks weird or makes my dick look smaller with it on. Itās all me in my own head so Iām working through it.
But again for interest for the group, I think really working on the squeeze to not come helps, we just gotta hang in there and keep swinging the bat and a try to get a few wins here and there to get the confidence back slowly but surely. Someone recently reminded me lesbian couples donāt have dicks and still have a wild time, so there are many ways to satisfy a woman. we just need to keep other areas sharp to keep them satisfied while we deal with our issues.
For me, I believe Iām dealing with the rejection from my ex, I donāt love you and the feeling of not being desired for over a year or so and then the breakup itself. Just the feeling of sensing the girl is really into you, craving you is something Iāve missed for a long timeā¦ if a girls not into it fully I donāt want to continue., Iām just trying to get the back on the horse with confidence again, which tonight was the first time Iāve had a little win. Not perfect but I feel thereās a step in the right direction ā¦ hopefully Iāve said something here which someone can relate to in some way, shape or form and hopefully give confidence or at least peace of mind your not the only one dealing with this stuffā¦ seems to happen to the best of us. Just need to plow on soldiers 
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Psā¦ Will try to give you updates on my progress with some more dates Iāve got lined up in the next week or two!