Hey guys,
I’d like to share my super weird story and get some hints to see things positively.
I am 25 yo, and never had ED and I have never had any psychological problems. ED didn’t even cross my mind, my penis was ready whenever I needed and I had a good libido.
In dec 2019 I started dating a new girl and the second time we met we had sex, the first two times were pretty good, the third time (in three hours 
) my penis decided to quit the game (there is a specific reason for that, a weird sexual request from the girl I tried to satisfy…). It was the first time this happened and I felt so bad…
After that day, we tried to have sex many times but my erection dropped during the penetration.
Covid has arrived and I haven’t had the chance to meet that girl again.
Meanwhile, my masturbatory life proceeded pretty good: strong erections and no worries (once a day, most of the times watching porn) but I constantly had the attention on the quality of my erections (e.g. morning woods, change in the erection depending on the position, ecc…)
In january 2021 during a masturbation I suddenly lost my erection and I couldn’t get it back… I got really frightened: couldn’t sleep and couldn’t get erections for almost 2 weeks.
I decided to go to an urologist that visited me and told me I had no physical problem, thus my ED was 100% psychogenic.
Knowing this, things improved a little bit and I started having strong morning woods and sometimes (when I had no anxiety), also very good erections during masturbation.
By the way I now suffer from a tremendous performance anxiety (also during masturbation) and most of the times whenever I start getting an erection my anxiety inexplicabily increases and of course, my penis goes down.
I tried with a psychological teraphy but it just made things worse (I had just four meetings, but I was in a mood for which theraphy was just not helping).
In march 2021 my doctor prescribed me Trintellix, Mirtazapine and Citalopram, plus some Xanax when needed. I took them until August, then I saw no improvements and my doctor wanted to give me some more powerful meds but I wasn’t fine with that so I changed doctor. My new doctor has asked me to gradually discontinue antidepressants and he started a talk therapy. My depression is much better now, although I’m having some serious problems with anxiety that most of the times I cannot even masturbate. I am on Tadalafil 5mg every 36 hours and this helps, but I just feel I cannot overome my performance anxiety.
Don’t think I am crazy, but I have also thought about getting a penile implant to fix my dramatic situation…
Btw
I’m just afraid I will never be able to have sex again as sex, erections and masturbation are giving me so much anxiety right now…