I’m 44 now and have suffered my whole life with this, and so tired of it. I had mild sexual abuse encounters when I was about 7-8 yo, which only went on for a couple of mo I think and only a few times. Ever since that happened I was so freaked out by anything sex related, as well as depression and anxiety which started at same time, apparently has ptsd symptoms due to the shock and worry. Safe to say it ducked my head up pretty bad. At that age I thought it made me gay, and powerful destructive voices saying your this your that just destroyed me. Didn’t speak to anyone for years until I got into drugs and didn’t really care if I lived or died. All my young relationships were horrendous, I had loads of attention from girls but was terrified of any experience, and when I did get there, it was an embarrassment, shaming and just destroyed me further. So many missed chances that should have been great and memorable, and could have been amazing relationships, instead of a disasters that made me want to end it.
Fast forward, I’m married with two amazing kids, and I feel truly blessed, but I would like to get this part of my life right, not feel like my wife must think of other much better experiences with other guys in the past, or that I’m just a failure and can’t please or fulfill her properly. She says it’s fine but I don’t feel that way. I’m hoping this is going to help. I don’t really wake in the morning with erections now, so don’t know if this is low T, but I also take bp meds sue to a kidney problem I have, and I’m sure this plays a part in it too. Does this app do Kegel exercises? I thought it did but cannot find them, I hoped this would help too.
Yes, go to Resources at the bottom, then Activities, then Pelvic Floor Exercises. Good luck!