Hi,
You can call me blank. (Unless there is a different name shown).
I am recently out of a near four year relationship that was the first that i have ever desired to be my definite last. We are still living together and there is no animosity or anger between us. She just began to fall out of live with me rapidly. I still think that we are great partners for eachother as there was very little bad that I feel is not workable. Namely sex, and my own motivation and desire. On her end she also feels like she is not a good partner for me because of several reasons, most of which I personally dont see as a negative in a partner.
We still have a lease together until october and are attempting to stay in eachothers ouves regardless. I am using this shakeup in life to drive me forward in self improvement that i had put to the side to help deal with her problems. Another workable issue that I feel I can work on by being more resilient with my own boundaries and getting better at not losing myself in the focus on helping others.
Im also starting trt, and seeking diagnosis and treatment for my adhd. Its a lot to go on at once and I am consistently very sad about everything and grieving the loss of what i truly saw as my future. So I am thinking a lot of my mental health and trying to get better at communicating my emotions and thoughts without prompt, and with the desire to share rather than solely to empathise others situations.
Anyway Its a lot, Im happy to start working on all of this, and while I hope we get together again, i only want that if we start from dating again AND as a side effect of myself becoming a better version of me. Altrnatively if in that growth I find her to be correct in us not being the right partner for eachother then that is also a good outcome.
Sorry to info dump, just reaching out early to try and be better about joining a community and interactions with it. I am generally an introvert in that social situatiins drain me, but i want to get the recharge time lower and hopefully get better at enjoying the time spent out.
So thats me right now. Nice to meet you all!