I’m ready to quit it completely. I don’t do regular porn, I get off from lift and carry. I love being lifted by women or even watching vids of women lifting men. Am I the only one here with a lift and carry fantasy?
Relying on these specific fetishes is not good, since you will probably not be able to do them with a partner and you might not be able to have regular sex otherwise.
I would try to recondition myself to more realistic sexual situations. It seems like you like dominant women. Try to fantasize or even watch porn (it should be ok for this purpose for now) where the woman is dominant, so that you are still turned on, but the situation still involves more realistic scenarios, that the woman will likely enjoy, like cunnilingus and/or PIV where she’s on top.