I have a friend from hs who is very hung. Iv known him for about 10 years now. I really enjoy giving him oral and have been doing so for the last 8 years of knowing him. Part of the hotness is that he is straight but trusts me enough not to go talking about our private time. For him it’s strictly 10000% about the release and cant deny my deep throat skills and the sneaking behind whatever gf he has at the time and getting head from someone not his gf and well not a female. I will record our encounters because as mentioned he will find really sexy and obscure places to meet him. Its super hot to me because of all the crazy factors. So now in my journey ive stopped watching porn but crave to watch my videos of me giving my buddy from hs pornstar head. (Bi male here ) so my question is, does it still count as porn and rewire my brain to get hard to the video and not the action as watching porn does?
Truthfully, this is something I also would like to know. I’ve basically recorded every sexual encounter I’ve had (with proper consent, of course). I think what helps me is that it’s not an edited recording. It’s easy to forget that porn has multiple takes and is edited vs. your recording, which is 1 unedited take, making it much more real (at least in my head)
So, to know if I’ve been talking out of my ass this whole time and that it doesn’t change anything would be very helpful 