I’m a 27 years old and for âge 8 to 15 i was sexually abuse by my best friends of the Time. I didn’t even realise i was abuse until somebody point that out. I have been suffuring from Ed my Hole life. I never got able to penetrate my partner.
I juste wonder if other people where in my situation and got out ? Because honestly I don’t have any hope.
We Say that hope keep you Alive but me it’s killing me instead…
I was also abused by slightly older close friends when I was 11/12. They also abused my younger brother at the same time. I didn’t realize it was sexual abuse at the time either. But I felt shame and guilt. Guilt that I hadn’t protected my brother. Shame for the act. It was my first sexual encounter. I didn’t know to try and get mental help. And even if I would have known to ask for help, there was no one I could have gone too. .
When puberty came around I suppressed my sexuality and didn’t masturbate. With different partners throughout my life I have struggled with getting proper erections from messing around to penetration. I have had trouble my whole life. I have difficulty by myself and with a partner. I always go numb and go into my head. I think I feel ashamed to get an erection. I just started this course, and it pointed out that maybe I don’t let myself experience pleasure. It feels hopeless.
Just this weekend I tried Sat night and Sun night w/ my partner and did not have success at all. Sat after we gave up I was angry and hateful to myself. Sunday I woke up angry and frustrated at myself. I felt so heavy. It’s killing me too. Monday I had had enough. I found Mojo when I was looking to find a counselor or psychiatrist to go to locally. I’ve tried Viagra and Cialis with no real success. When I saw that this program focuses on the psychology behind getting good erections I thought I should try it. I am sceptacle but desperate to change the direction of this part of my life. It sucks but I’m not giving up. You shouldn’t either.
God damn you cannot know how great that feel. Reading your answer make me cry because I am not alone… For the longest Time i felt alone and ashame. I don’t want to give Up even if I’m tired to try. If you get any good feed back please let me know. I’m single so I can’t really try myself. And also tell me do you find IT hard to be in a relationship whit Ed because when I was in a relationship IT felt like a Burden and I think that’s why m’y ex broke Up with me
I also feel some relief. Until this course, I felt I was the only one, and that I was being an idiot. Now I feel that maybe there is some hope. I appreciate you taking the risk to share here.
No problem I’m tired to feel ashame and I just wanted to know if other people where in the same situation.