I’ve been making great headway with my therapist, following along on here. For the past month or so my GF and I have been having sex, pretty much, at least once every day. I’ve been a little in my head but nothing unmanageable. I’ve been communicating when I’m feeling anxious or insecure and she’s been very accepting and that usually eases my mind.
We were just recently out of town for her birthday on a romantic getaway. At the beginning, I was anxious but able to push through it. We ended up having sex around 3 times each day.
On the last day, as we were about to pack to leave, we had sex and were snuggling. I got hard again and we went for round 2. She came a couple times, but about 10 or so min in I got really tired. I realized I wasn’t going to be able to finish, and my erection went down.
This was yesterday. Since then I have been so in my head and completely riddled with performance anxiety. I feel like a failure and loser. She’s confused and feeling insecure no matter how many times I tell her what is going on with me.
I’m just terrified that I’ve lost all my progress, that this will keep happening now suddenly after such an incredible period, and that she will leave me for someone else.