Damn, I’ve been through the gamut of sexual shame, body dysmorphia and anxiety. Been doing a lot of work to shatter the internal self-criticism. Now I can name issues without them defining me, like psychological limp dick.
It has taken me a decade from age 30 to 40 to realize that all the limp moments were mental, not merely a symptom of physically aging. In the face of high stakes situations, where I think I need to perform for partners, I get so in my head and spiral into awkwardness. I’ve even told partners I’m getting “camera shy”. Very telling about how I view sex. This always happen when it’s time to insert.
In the last couple of weeks, after 3 years of sporadic use of ED meds to mixed results, I’ve started seeking new methods of sexual health therapy and glad I found this app. I have been so focused on finding something to fix me vs discovering methods to grow me (no pun intended).
I am realizing that all my mental, emotional and physical well-being has been focused outside of the bedroom.
Now it’s time to focus on it in the bedroom.
