I feel like I’m stuck in a loop. The more I use this app, the more it forces me to think about ED, which is making my anxiety worse. I’ve been doing the classes in the app for 7 days, and today’s anxiety is the worst it has ever been. It’s physically impacting me. I’m worried that I’m stuck in a rut I can’t get out of despite the classes in the app really resonating with me. It’s all just so frustrating. I’ve never felt or experienced any of this until just a few weeks ago when it abruptly started after a single ED episode.
I used to get incredibly angry while doing these exercises. What helped me is that I seek to be able to think of ED without it affecting me. It’s a thought, it doesn’t have to control you. There’s a lot of stuff on this app, it sounds like you’re a bit “stuck in your head”. When that’s happening to me, I particularly like the exercises where you count a number of physical sensations you feel at the current moment. Keep going and definitely remember to not be too hard on yourself
There is an element of “exposure therapy” to all of this. You’re facing your challenges head on. You’re exposing yourself to your triggers. It’s natural to feel anxious in the face of a bold move to address your sexual health.
I would give yourself some grace, and give yourself congratulations for taking this first step. Give yourself some positive input because that’s what’s needed here. Keep up the exercises and they’ll become more natural feeling. You’re only a week in. You are at the beginning of your journey. Hold the pose. Don’t expect too much too soon. Be kind to yourself!
I have the same issue . Mine also came on two weeks ago for the first time and now it’s worse than ever . Iam am three days in .