I’ve realised that porn became a reactive autopilot mindless mechanism for coping with negative feelings such as stress, anxiety, sadness and overwhelm. I would prefer for it to be more mindful and exploratory
Yea it’s pretty mindless for me. I’ll go weeks without it though and that’s fine. Not a huge go-to for me
It’s usually to de stress or when i don’t get satisfied irl
That there are alternatives to porn. If you are mindful and want to watch it that’s fine. But just doing it from habit is wrong.
A porn log is a good idea to see how integrated porn is into my life.
I’m going to introduce a porn log to my everyday routine and see my habits and how they are affected through porn.
I’d like to firstly enjoy porn more with no guilt, stop worrying about whether it is impacting my erections, and then get curious and nonjudgmental about when I am watching out of autopilot habit or when I genuinely want it. I want to reverse my judgemental and negative thinking around porn that I think has manifested into dysfunction
I notice that I watch porn when I am lonely and sad. Oftentimes I feel guilty after watching it. I would like to understand my triggers and would like to watch porn for the fun of it and not compulsively
Trying new strategies when I’m coming at porn for less pleasurable reasons
Identifying trigger for porn
I’m going to look for alternative activities to watching porn if I’m not horny and Jsut looking for stress relief or board. Also going to try the erotic audio.
I might try to masturbate less and take a break for a few days
Logging why I watch it when I do it might be interesting