Penis shape influencing topping

Would love to know how many people experience this. I have a right down curving penis. I don’t get as rock hard as some guys and my penis even when hard bends kind of in the middle. It feels like in that down part it’s just not erectile tissue. It does not hurt but when bent I tend to lose my erection either because of anxiety or actual physics. It has made it hard for me to top, especially if guys are really tight. I can only ever top if the guy is on all fours, I get so stressed if they guys tries to sit on my dick because I feel they will snap it in half. I am not sure if this is a condition or just another way dicks are. I would love to know if you have the same issue and if you have found a solution

I highly suggest going to a urologist. It sounds to me(I’m not a doctor) like maybe you have a weak point that may have been damaged before and could lead to an actual break. Now again I’m not a doctor but I have had a minor bend caused by a girl being on top and accidentally bending it too far and caused a weak point in my shaft. Which a few years later was the reason why I ended up having a full on penile break while having sex. And that meant I had to go into emergency surgery to fix it. It still works, thankfully, but it’s not an easy healing process and if I were you I’d go to a urologist and just get it checked out.