Tonight felt like an “L” but I’m trying to shift my mindset to maybe see it as a “W”.
I’ve been doing good lately. Feeling confident and not having any issues.
Today I went to be intimate with my GF. I was feeling anxious beforehand and sure enough, the man downstairs didn’t want to play. I did other things to please her and we just laid there and snuggled. I was open with her about feeling anxious and inadequate today. It’s really scary for me to show vulnerability to her.
Eventually I got aroused and we ended up having sex, although I was still feeling anxious so I finished earlier than I usually do.
I’m feeling really shitty about myself, but also trying to reframe this. Thanks for listening.