Identifying the inner critic during soft penis pleasuring

Why aren’t you getting hard? Shouldn’t you be more sensitive down here? Do all dicks look like this?

Noticed that it started to get hard as soon as I was trying to not let it get hard. As though taking the urge to get hard away actually made it more exciting.
The actual act of touching my flaccid penis wasn’t so strange, he has been a buddy since childhood. He only seems to get stressed when we throw someone else into the mix.
Will def try this with my girl as well…

It was saying that im not comfortable with my penis in its soft state

Being this flaccid made me feel small. I already have issues with body expectations based on porn I used to watch. So this amplified it. But I told my dick (for the first time) “I love you, and thank you for all the pleasure you have given me” it was weird.

My inner critic couldn’t help at being sad I wasn’t getting hard. I had sex this morning, but even so my critic is shaming me for not being able to keep it going at my youthful age.

Interestingly my inner critic had nothing to say. I thoroughly enjoyed just messing around in my birthday suit. At one point I purposely thought negative things to show myself how trivial such thoughts actually are.

I was thinking of how this reminds me of all the times I couldn’t get hard but since the goal of the exercise was to not get hard it made me feel a little better. I also thought it looked small and that I should be feeling more pleasure/sensation than I was.

My inner critic said “wow, you don’t even feel like getting hard. Your getting old. Is it getting worse?” I felt uncomfortable trying to just be with my softy. I realized that I haven’t had a good relationship with my dick my whole life. It was eye opening if nothing else.

It was difficult to not get an erection doing this.

Felt like I should be getting hard.

The inner critic was hinting that I should be getting an erection even though it’s not the point of the exercise. This caused some anxiety which should be ridiculous considering I’m on my own with no witnesses.

I didn’t notice the inner critic because the whole goal was to keep it soft and appreciate it for what it is. I wasn’t failing by staying soft. It was kind of eye opening that when I would start to get a little bit hard I would stop feeling and just look at my penis and I could visibly see it shrink back down. This helped me see the damage that spectating can do.

I felt a little weird but didn’t notice the critic to much.

It is more like I could sense the inner critic there watching. There was a moment when it said something about how this is as hard I’ll get during sex. But this was at the start then this stopped. These kind of thoughts massively increase performance anxiety.

But as the excercise wore on I felt better and more relaxed just playing around

Started saying that I might be this way during sex and I was thinking I should be getting erect right now

This exercise was actually quite comforting for me. The less I thought and stressed myself about getting an erection the more comfortable I was. The inner critique started to sound more like a friend than anything I actually felt more confident I could get an erection in the comfortable state I was in.

Inner critic mentioned “the way it curves a bit, some bits are a different tone of skin colour, the freckle, how veiny it is in certain parts, the dip I have just above my penis and my pubic area.

Certain areas to touch excited me and all in all I actually do think my soft penis isn’t that bad looking, my partner likes it, so why shouldn’t I.

I noticed that he said that I shouldn’t have any difficulty not getting an erection during this exercise

It was being negative and questioning why I can’t get hard. It remit me if the times I couldn’t and relived the embarrassment.

The inner critic was placing me back in situations where I failed to get an erection. It also made me feel as if I were less of a man for failing to rise up to the task.