Just how funny it looks flaccid lol but it is flaccid most of the time. Just not a body part I see regularly.
He tried to make me feel uncomfortable by imagining there was someone else here
Soft penis, will it ever be hard enough
This isn’t going to work. It worked. Hurry up and don’t waste it. You don’t know how long it is going to last. Are you insane to let it deflate again?
I was wondering if I was doing it wrong at first because started to get hard. But then just went with it. I did notice that the head of my penis is a funny looking thing - kinda a mushroom top. And then I started to giggle just a little. Anyway, I didn’t get super hard, but it didn’t stay fully soft very long
The head is too small. The balls are too small. Look at how it’s just flopping there. That’s all it does when you want it to work too.
Those thoughts are what cycle me through soft too semi back to soft. Never able to actually perform in bed.
My inner critic was in the form of my coworkers/friends looking down on me for doing this exercise. Even though they obviously won’t think that. This is reaffirming my how false my thinking is and when I realize that, I start to get a peace of mine while doing this exercise.
Just reminded me that this is my usual state whenever I try to get hard.
What the hell are you doing? This is stupid
Started getting a semi pretty fast then the urge to look at porn came on and the inner critic told me I was broken for how easy that was.waited and tired again, Just telling me how gross I am
Kept getting a semi and criticising myself for not following the instructions and essentially failing the exercise.
Inner critic telling me you going to stay soft and not perform when needed too.
Started feeling like I should be getting hard but wasn’t
I started remembering all the times I saw bigger penises (even while soft) either on a screen or irl and comparing my friend to them unfavorably.
I should be getting an erection from all this touching
Inner critic said ; why are you getting hard when you’re supposed to stay soft and getting soft when you’re supposed to stay hard. Performance anxiety is there because I’m not living up to my inner critic’s expectations.
My inner critic at first was thinking why aren’t you getting hard but then I began to think about how a soft penis is completely normal, which actually kind of relaxed me and gave me a reason not to be upset, stressed or mad at the little guy. Lol
Inner critic was concerned at getting hard by touching it, and sometimes critical of size/shape
Actually did get erect but my glands wouldn’t fill, which happens sometimes and is a source of anxiety as it looks ridiculous, decreases total size and reduces sensation.
The IC kept bringing up memories of uncomfortable sexual experiences where I either came too fast or was too nervous to get hard. Giving these thoughts weight can continue the cycle of performance anxiety.