So I was out with my new GF for a few drinks. We only have one round before she said we should go back to her place.
Ngl, I was bricking it. I had been out the night before and wasn’t feeling good and had trouble getting hard last time with her from making out. But I managed to calm down and get hard!
While I still found it difficult to get hard from foreplay and she hard to touch with my penis to get me hard, I was able to stay hard after that. We finished each other with oral sex, but relieved I could get hard with her and could have done it if it was penetration
Def not out of the woods completely. Actually feel a bit nervous about the next time despite the success I had last night, but guess that’s just the inner critic being hard wired, gonna take more experience to lessen it.
I’m also going to be seeing a therapist in an another week, just feel I need some additional support. Really want to be more sensitised to sex and foreplay, but guess it will take time. But I’m glad I can at least get hard.