My whole experience with my ex wife
i’ve been thinking of porn as something negative in my life that I am fighting to quit. Maybe the first thing to do is reevaluate that and try to build a healthier relationship with it rather than just feeling bad for watching it
I struggle with some fantasises as they go against my morals and my perception of being the man in the relationship. It’s a battle I’ve always had in my own mind and while I don’t think it’s caused any issues with my sex drive or my ability to get it up, it’s something I feel needs some sort of explanation as to where it came from as it hasn’t always been there despite me watching porn for years
When I was in my late teens I was super into straight porn despite being gay, seeing guys breed and fuck was actually hot (as long as the video wasn’t focused too much on the woman), over time I felt wrong for this because it didn’t match my personality and that caused stress and shame.
I started watching porn at a very young age and have been consuming it almost everyday for over a decade now. With an increase in my ED issues, I suddenly stumbled upon the idea of porn induced ED which has significantly changed my perception of porn