Been seeing a new girl lately who I’m pretty into and she was over at my place last night. I had been using mojo for a little bit (not long enough that I expect all my problems to disappear or anything but long enough that I’ve been feeling a little more confident at least) We started fooling around at one point and ended up in the bedroom, but still wasn’t able to rise to the occasion. I tried to breathe and take in my surroundings to be more present but I could still feel my body was a little too tense to really enjoy myself. I explained to her that it’s something I’ve been working on and that I didn’t want her to take it personally and she was understanding (I at least went down on her so that she’d get something out of the night and I think she appreciated that at least lol).
We’re still messaging today but I’m in my head about it happening again and there’s a bit of anxiety that this is going to be a problem that will lead to us not working out. I still plan on doing the exercises regularly to hopefully continue making progress but just needed to vent here a little bit. Hope y’all are making progress, we’ll all get there eventually🤙