Worrying they won’t enjoy it
Knowing if I go limp , she will be hurt
My inter critique wasn’t another thing but just me. It’s like I saw myself from my POV or even 3rd person and showing me what might happen.
An ugly angry version of myself
I see one of my exs fro high school that made fun of me because one night i couldn’t get up
A disappointed face of someone familiar
I’m always worried about if they’ll enjoy it.
My size and my age showing weakness
Disappointing her or not satisfying her
Just someone who takes my confidence away
Not being able to get hard/ last long enough to satisfy. Just being a bit clueless and not knowing what I’m doing
It was listing all the challenges that are lying ahead of me and it was telling me that am not good enough to handle them. I felt my hear beat faster in fear.
Replaying the times things haven’t gone well and makin me thk it’s going to happen again
Let down. Like I’m going to let down the people I care about
It feels empty envy
It’s like a combination of my younger self, a buff, sexy, overconfident boner with legs and an ex fling who gave me a time limit to satisfy her in this sweaty, run down apartment. They both are mocking me as a team as my masculine and feminine self are at war with myself to have satisfying sex without feeling pressured or given a limit or restriction to perform at my best.
It just looks like a future me that is failing or already has failed
Ghost
It’s my religious background saying no to sex, growing into a chest constricting Chasity belt around my neck. I feel like I’m bound by this from feeling confident in sex
A face of disappointment or even anger