I should be getting hard and there was absolutely nothing going on until I switched to masturbation
It was soft, and I avoided too much touching of the areas I noticed sensation that could lead to it getting hard on purpose to try and better do the exercise with it staying soft.
It seemed a little small and like it needed caring. Was interesting to notice the texture of the skin on the head and think that I couldn’t picture that texture anywhere else on my body, so it seemed unique. I contemplated the shape, and why the shape might be like it is, why the head is a bit like a mushroom, and how might that please my partner.
My inner critic was saying that she wouldn’t want to see it like this cos it’s not as impressive as when it’s up, but then I said to myself but I like this lil guy and to take it easy on him, there’s a fun road ahead
Part of my dick looks weird. It got hard at one point and I started thinking is it big enough, as well as how flaccid and small it looks when it’s soft.
I didn’t think I noticed the inner critic, but just realised I was wondering if or when I was going to get hard at first, since I was touching him. Then forgot about it and carried on talking to Big Dave like we were old pals.
It said that this is easy because anyway I won’t be hard while touching myself.
Started having thoughts of being a failure, of not being good enough, of what others would think.
I did actually notice some size insecurity, which I haven’t really noticed from myself before. It was a cold night, so I thought “Surely I can get myself going a little.” But other than that, I tried to take it all in from a fairly neutral perspective, and I’d say it was helpful.
Thought I needed to manscape for it to look better
That it used to get hard
Touching myself like this isn’t weird, but sharing it on the internet sure as hell is lol.
Had some thoughts about not getting hard. Then started to get hard, had a moment of happiness, and then was back to “why are you not all the way hard”. Then played by the rules and let it go away. Didn’t come back. But the pressure being off of this “game” is promising, I think it could help eventually.
At first my inner critic criticized the size of my penis, both length and width. Then, after I while, I compare my penis length to my longest finger, and my penis was longer. Then I said well hey, if I just looked at my longest finger, I wouldn’t say that that was small for a soft penis, so maybe it’s not small while soft. I’m definitely a grower, and it grows to an above average size, but maybe even while soft it’s a fine size.
I found myself looking at it and viewing it small I’m voice saying too small a voice saying that Do I have to watch pornography of that I feel like my perspection was really
I believe my inner critic hates my flaccid dick. Maybe this is an underlying issue.
Cause I’m looking at it, and in less than 2 minutes it’s getting hard. I love my dick when it’s hard, but I think when it’s soft, I believe it’s not big enough. I’m a grower not a shower, so I really don’t care for my soft penis enough. Never showed any admiration for it, don’t even take pics of it.
I need to address this, this exercise was enlightening.
i was trying not to get hard, but it was very difficult
just by looking at it, it started getting hard
but also my inner critic told me " you dont want her to see it like this, soft and useless"
I’ve spent plenty of time with myself in saunas and hot tubes nude just relaxing and have never had a problem with my penis or body. Being a bit older, I am what I am and I can’t change anything about it. I’ve excepted my goods, bad, limitations and everything and understand the things I can change and the things I can’t. Perhaps I don’t fully understand the purpose of the exercise.
My inner critic: “there you go again. Flaccid as in life”. But, as the exercise went on, realized I’m doing this to better myself as a man and as a person deserving of love and pleasure.
started thinking if it’s be hard enough to have sex
I was really worried at the beginning thinking my dick is way too small when it’s soft and it needs to be at least somewhat hard so I can be a real man with a manly dick. But after looking at it for a while and experimenting in positions I’d felt very uncomfortable in in prior times I noticed that it really isn’t that small and I noticed a bunch of little things about it like obi said - I feel way way way more comfortable being naked now - I never used to! Can’t believe how well this worked.
Was trying to feel comfortable with it being soft and not care if it was getting hard or not. Inner critic wanted to keep asking “why can’t you just think about being hard and it gets hard right away” and I had to try to ignore it.