Didn’t notice it this time
At first, I kept thinking about trying not to get an erection so I could do the exercises. I don’t normally have an issue with that while alone. As I expected, I kept getting erections and had to keep stopping. After a while I started thinking about how easily I kept getting erections, but I’m unable to do that with my partner.
So I started thinking about how I would feel during the exercise if I actually didn’t get an erection. Would I be upset with myself? As I continued after this point I knew I would be disheartened if I stopped quickly getting erections each time I went back to soft penis pleasuring…and what do you know…I stopped getting erections.
I, who was happy with the fact that I found it difficult not to get an erection, had reminded myself of how easily I could myself and from them on could only disappoint myself.
It’s a weird feeling to see so blatantly that I am the one causing my problems. I suggest to myself that a negative thing could happen and suddenly it does. I must be able to do the opposite at some point right? Very interesting.
Didn’t get hard at all, very difficult for my mind not to wonder, but surprisingly not as negative as I thought. Did think “it looks weird” and “you’re small” but that’s about it.
My inner critic said I should be getting hard since I am touching my penis. I set a standard that doesn’t need to be set.
Actually found it tonight not to become erect, even when the touch wasn’t in any way pleasurable. Mixed feelings, on one hand it’s good to know I have plenty of capacity to become erect - however it was frustrating that it was so easy entirely in the moment I didn’t need it to be.
I was critical of my size. I dont even believe that I’m small but compared to.my erect penis or those you see in porn, it’s not impressive and I think… if a girl saw this or touched this I’d be embarrassed.
Can it get hard and is it big enough. I’m sure these are the same thoughts/doubts that pop up right before/during sex
That it should be more pleasurable. That maybe I was broken
My inner critic was constantly telling me how small and ugly my penis was when flaccid and then a sudden question of whether my penis was big enough when erect or was there not much difference. It was constantly asking me how girls would perceive it in its flaccid state, whether they would find it admirable or would they think it’s ugly, too.
It was weird that I couldn’t really hear the inner critic. Maybe because I thought there was no pressure to perform
Why won’t you get hard, come on what’s wrong with you.
2 mins into the exercise I got into a semi state and if i continued i would have been hard. However i feel this is always my issue, while on my own i have no concerns with getting hard even if i’m not feeling in the mood i can get myself there, however as soon as i bring my partner into the situation i struggle even getting semi… as straight away i am thinking negatively and im in my head about the whole situation.
nothing is happening, then suddenly i was getting hard and couldn’t get it down…
Of course you’re not getting hard. Why would you when you aren’t watching porn?
I got actually quite aroused by easy touches and could my inner critic (or some other voice) say: man, just go for it
Judging how my penis looks, saying it’s unattractive.
I should be getting hard, if you get hard it will probably go limp.
It said this is not going to be attractive when my partner looks at my penis like this. If it’s not erect, she’s not going to like it.
It causes me to only think about me - and criticize myself vs appreciating the moment and in in-person situations neglecting the person im with
Not really. I just kinda observed my penis and was playing with it. Mind drifted off to other things but wasn’t in the negatives at all