My inner critic looks like me.
It feels like failure. It tells me I’m not good enough and therefore can’t please my partner. It’s about doubt and lack of focus and connection between mind and penis
My mind has the desire to want to do loads of things but it’s like my penis is not connected to how my mind feels and then I begin to worry that nothing will happen and it results in nothing happening
It tells me that I only have one shot to make a good first impression, which leads to self doubt that I’ll be able to please my partner and have her lose interest in me, which leads to anxiety in the encounter instead of excitement
Just a flat feeling. No connection, no sense of arousal which then feels
like failure is inevitable.
A dreading doom of here we go again how am I going to explain myself. When I do get hard a voice saying it’s not going to last, it’s not if but when am I going to get soft. Im no longer living in the moment but in my head. A hollow feeling of a hole that starts getting deeper and deeper inside my chest my heart feels like it’s racing. My mind starts running about her thoughts and what she is thinking of me. Why I would a partner want to deal with this. Why should they have to deal with this. I immediately start thinking of how we can take the attention off of me and put all effort of the encounter towards her. An anger and fear overwhelms me and I just want to escape or punch something, scream, or jump. frustration. It takes over me and there is no coming back from it. Sadness and a sense of hopelessness. What’s wrong with me