Just a general feeling.
My own voice in my head
Fear
It’s a doubt that she’s enjoying whatever I’m doing, which causes the downward spiral. She engages so I know she enjoys it, but I just doubt myself. From there it’s “Fuck, fuck, fuck,” and an attempt to recover.
It’s myself
Fear of failure
Me, convinced that if I don’t show her a good time she’ll get bored and leave. That it’s a test!
It’s a cynical voice. It helps sometimes but other times it’s a hurtful voice.
A voice that puts doubt on everything
It was a void. A blankness. Death.
My own voice telling me I will fail to perform, and a sense of underlying anxiety.
It was myself I pictured. Telling me what the problems were
It is me, and it’s a visualization of me losing my boner at critical times. Sometimes I wonder if I am legitimately unattracted by movements and positions my partner takes, but then I can remember many successful efforts as well. I know I am physically capable of sustaining an erection, but I have failed enough times that my inner critic tells me otherwise. Now, it owns me. It’s a manifestation of these visualizations of failure.
Not even a voice necessarily but the thought process of I need to get up stay up and last decently long and the feeling of dread not being able to potentially do that.
Just imagining the encounter going wrong
A voice saying it will go up but it wont stay up!
It was my voice telling me that I won’t perform, won’t last long enough and that my partner will leave me because I can’t keep her satisfied
Just a disembodied voice
its a traumatized and fearful version myself that does not want to disappoint my partner
Its a dark version of myself that doubts me and says im just destined to come up short in sex and things in life. And im successful. Its a battle.