Hi everyone! I’ve been struggling with ED since my first sex experience at 16. At that time I was not conscious of being anxious but after getting hard I got soft when I had to go get the condom. It has been very traumatizing to me I remember crying a lot. I’m 42 now. I’m in a relationship where sex is pretty satisfactory. At start I had ED but after talking more about it it started to work every time. But I also know that I need more exposure to new experiences with random people to loose the fear of not getting hard. For this and other reasons, we decide and we want to open the relation ship.
It’s really something that I want. For me my relationship for my boyfriend. But even we have good sex together, my fear now is that having problems with casual partners will affect my self estime and my sex life. And also, even I truly believe that it’s fine that my boyfriend can have pleasure with someone else, I’m not sure how much my inner self can handle this idea and make my ED worse.
If somebody had a similar experience, I would be happy to hear it! Thanks!