I met my wife 5 years ago. Moved in 2 years ago, married 6 months ago. Im 35. Shes 32.
I have always had some level of ed issues- for context i work out 6x a week and eat healthy. I first checked my test levels at 19 and it was 350. Its now 298. I know this is on the lower end, and i truly feel it it.
Our sex life prior to moving in was occasional sex mixed with some masterbation for each other. Days when i felt i couldnt get it up, i felt comfortable enough to just get her off.
Fast forward, we moved in. She began struggling with some ocd issues which also caused us to not have sex. Part of me felt good about that due to the anxiety of disapointment.
Recently, we decided to start trying for a baby. I was able to get her into the mood easily (which removed her ocd about pain during sex) but i could not maintain erection. For 3 nights in a row (now ovulation is over). I feel like such a failure. I assured her that we are going on vacation and we will do it often there without pressure and we will succeed next month. However, idk if i belive that. Im scared. How could i get my wife pregnant and have a child if i lose my erection half way in…i have now ordered pills :(.
I do see trt or clomid in the future as a start, but i worry about the quality of sperm the drugs might effect.
Sorry for long message. Thank you for reading.