Hello, I am a straight 40 year old who has been married for almost 6 years. Looking back I’ve had ED on/off since I became sexually active which for me was 24 (I was a shy guy).
Looking back on relationships, I have had no ED when I first start a relationship, however when time goes on I develop ED. I seem to get bored and aloof in the bedroom, and I seem to go through the motions. In the past I have imagined having sex with actresses, models even past crushes from years ago to get through it - I know thats wrong and shitty, but at times it was the only way to stay erect and pleasure my partner. Since my wife gave birth to my child, I cant imagine having sex with others anymore - because I feel really guilty - which is a big erection killer. I seem to be only able to get erect my using my right hand, which usually works - maintaining the erection is difficult for me.
We are trying for a 2nd kid and I have begun to use the blue pill - which works most of the time to keep an erection, but to climax I still have to think of someone else than my wife - which is not good at all and im not happy about it. Just desperate now for a normal sexual relationship with the woman I love. 