I had the first all weekend sex romp with my new girlfriend since suffering this chronic incidence of PA and spectatoring. It was failure and stress followed by amazing perfect sex when everything aligned. This happened each day for 3 days. Prelude to great successful sex were: blow job , body slide with oil and finally hand job with oil. The common denominator was solid erections, which gave me confidence to attempt penetration. Each time, I was caught spectatoring, and it made me worry about performance. I thought that after the initial fantastic sex I would be fine, but my negative programming has burrowed in deeper.
We will be doing it all again on Wed, and there is real sexual chemistry.
I want to rid my thoughts of this stressful programming.
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