I’m seeing someone new and we’ve had sex twice. First time was awful I flopped, second time was better but not 100%. I can tell she likes me but I’m still nervous before seeing her.
Saturday I went to her place. Each time I see her I feel a bit more confident. We’re on her couch and getting into it and my little guy just doesn’t react. I kind of have a panic attack in my head and we break.
I’m sitting there feeling awful like I failed and this is it and I won’t get it up tonight - but then I have this voice saying it’s not over yet and I have to try and recover.
We move to her bed and we’re watching a movie, I’m more calm and I start caressing her under the sheets and I’m getting hard! We end up having sex and I’m so happy because I didn’t think I could get it back but I did. First breakthrough.
Next day she mentions that I seemed to lose my erection a bit during sex and asking if it was her fault. To be honest I didn’t really notice I lost a bit I was so glad it worked at all. Anyway I mentioned my performance anxiety and she was really supportive! Second breakthrough, I’ve never told a woman before.
I feel really glad about both, but also I’m wondering if I’ll be even more nervous next time I see her now that she knows. Seems like we’ll both be paying more attention to it which has me nervous. Trying to lean into the positivity and her support.
