So long story short, I was all ready to settle down and buy a house etc with my ex. She ended up letting me down and being generally toxic until I was forced to end things between us.
I had a couple of casual sex encounters after we broke up, just to help with the transition, but one of these was a past flame of mine. On the night, I couldn’t start hard when I put the condom on, which ruined the moment with her(bear in mind this girl was very sexy). I was embarrassed and ashamed and told myself I wouldn’t let that happen again.
Q while later I started seeing another girl who loves a short flight away. As sex was a big deal for us, I felt obliged to perform whenever we would meet up - hence, I started buying Viagra. I liked how Viagra would mean I would have a hard on regardless of how in my head I got.
This has snowballed into me now not trusting myself at all and taking Viagra before every planned sexual encounter. In part because I want the certainty the pill provides, but also out of anxiety that I do not please the girl. It’s easy for.
girl to fake being horny but for us? Impossible.