I would turn to porn. using it to shut off my thoughts and emotion then feeling empty afterward. I started an adult account I did cam shows and promoted myself but soon I got hooked on the sexual attention and validation I received. It became another addiction one that made me feel seen and wanted for a moment, but left me feeling ashamed and hollow afterward. more I used porn and online sex, the more I needed to feel the same high. I started sexting with strangers and meeting people for hookups. deep down I knew I was trying to escape from my pain and loneliness. Now, l’m in a heterosexual relationship with someone I truly love. But when I get stressed or overwhelmed, those same urges resurface to seek attention, flirt, or act out online. I also felt as if I was getting addicted to the thrill of knowing that I was doing something that I wasn’t supposed to be doing Afterward I’m filled with guilt and shame, because I know I’m betraying the trust of someone who really loves me.I also recognize that I might be bisexual, and I’m learning to accept that part of myself. My goal isn’t to deny my sexuality but to stop using it as a form of escape. I want to reach a place where I can feel balanced where I can connect emotionally, not just sexually, and where I can manage stress without turning to porn or sexual behaviors. I would appreciate any advice or tips to try and beat this before, I have done no fap cycles with failure and I dont have anyone to reach out to about this. I appreciate any help.