I stopped seeing the girl I was with two weeks ago. It was voluntary and we had only been seeing each other for a few weeks so I’m not suffering a big emotional loss over a long term girlfriend. The last time we were together, she spent the night even though I made it clear I wanted to make it an early night because I had a lot going on at work the next day. I didn’t sleep well and I didn’t wake up aroused or desiring sex and she hit me with, “I can’t believe you’re denying me morning sex.” The good news is, this comment almost didn’t affect me at all. Bad news is, it stung a little bit. I’ve been celibate now for two weeks and I’m starting to feel the itch of not having a partner. I’m ready to get back on the saddle and find someone new. In the past losing a partner, often because of performance and anxiety issues in bed put me in a place where it took me a long time to start looking because of shame and embarrassment. I’m not feeling that at all right now and that feels like great progress…but I’m feeling the itchy horniness of being alone, I have no prospects. I was making good progress with sexual performance and confidence, I’m ready to get out and meet new women…right now…I want to continue the progress and avoid this nagging negative thought that I’m going to fall into a slump and suffer through a long miserable dry spell. Any thought, advice and encouragement are welcome!
FYI - RSVP’d for a meetup event tonight to get the ball rolling.