I my inner critic was saying “it’s just a penis and it’s not his fault, it’s my brain that’s the problem.”
Be hard.
Found it quite easy to get erect…and also quite easy to let that subside. For most of the 10 minutes I was semi erect so inner critic was telling me the same would happen with a partner and I would only maintain semi ercction throughout…
The inner critic commented on the size of my genitalia and would compare it to other males from porn. This resulted in decreased confidence and arousal.
The inner critic would say things like “wow this is really all you got?” And giving me underlying thoughts that im playing with a lesser penis. That being said, playing with it while having the intention to not get hard made me tune in to more of the sensations and it was honestly tough to stay soft most of the time! So in reality, if i adopt a similar mindset like that while being able to shut down that critic, it should be much more enjoyable and easier to get hard
ur not wanted if ur soft
Worried about appearing too small
i noticed it wasn’t as ugly as people often say penis’ should be
You’re playing with it and it isn’t even getting hard. There’s something wrong with you.
Smelly
It was a little bit frustrating as I actually kept getting erect and would have to wait for it to go down, then the voice in my head would be saying if its this easy now why can’t you do it when it matters
Started saying that even if I feel good now, it might be hard in the moment. Felt much better though reframing the situation as a positive, experimental scenario rather than a crunch-time scenario.
I started to worry that I wasn’t getting an erection even though the goal was to not get one. As if any touch should directly result in an erection, even if that is not the goal. Or perhaps, the inner critic wanted to make the erection the goal of the exercise.
“It’s too small. It’s too thin”. Well, it is what it is. I had fun with it. I fathered two children. I could still use it to please a woman.
At times I wondered whether I should be getting hard. Then at times, I was getting a semi and I was concerned because it was supposed to be soft for this exercise. After a while I was just playing around with it and having a bit of fun
Just never seem to be horny anymore I don’t get it
I Felt better about myself because in this exact moment where I was trying to just keep it soft the soft touching actually made it hard and gave me a renewed sense of confidence. Like, if I’m having trouble getting it up in the future, why not just softly touched it and see if this has the same result? Who knows, it’s hard to get through the exercise without getting hard which is ironic because i’ve had trouble getting hard weather masturbating or during sex
It help me with finding my pleasure points, and remembering how it would feel inside of her
It won’t happen,
It just kept asking: why, why do you even have this issue? What’s wrong with you (to my penis)?