Struggled with psych ED from age 23-now (30). For a few years I just used erection pills to cope. Now Iâve dedicated myself intensely to this process.
Meditations and body scans help me massively. Characterizing the critic and coach help me massively. And not shitting on the critic because I realize itâs there to protect me, but showing it love and hugging it and letting it know weâre safe now.
Saturday night met somebody and she came back to my place. A lot of sensual touch and massaging, when it came to sex I started losing my erection putting the condom on. Once it came on I wasnât hard enough to penetrate.
Which normally happens. But this time I didnât panic, I leaned back on all of the tools weâve learned here. And all of the lessons here taught me itâs ok. Itâs just not that big of a deal.
So I went back to sensual touch, and I pulled back at some point and let her touch me and I was enjoying receiving all of it. We went to have sex again and I lost my erection.
Which is normal for my first time with a new partner. But instead of panicking, I told her letâs relax for a bit. We laid down and were talking for a few mins, started touching her again, and next thing you know - boom.
Had sex, finished. Then she wanted to go again which I thought would be impossible. But I trusted my body and sure enough it worked. And we went again. And again.
We had sex four times to full orgasm, and each time I got harder and harder.
It was such an amazing experience to see the progress of this work paying off.
This has always been a brutal weight weighing on me, destroying my confidence, making me avoid social encounters and absolutely hate myself.
This program is worth every dollar and more. And when I work this program well, in addition to more meditation and physical exercise, the results are phenomenal.
I canât believe I could be cured of this issue that seemed like a lifelong death sentence.
God damn it feels good. And I wish anyone reading this a vigorous application of this program. There is hope and we do recover.